Do I Have a Golden Calf?/ Speaking Thru Me Spotlight

Over the next few months, the Internet Cafe Devotionals will feature a few guest devotionals from the ladies at Speaking Thru Me ministries. This unique ministry seeks to provide churches and groups with a professional speaker who feels called into ministry and are willing to be "sent" to share the good news of Christ. The ministry reaches out to churches of any size and offers a FEE FREE speaker service. For information on Speaking Thru Me, visit their site here. Several of our own Internet Cafe Team Writers are involved with Speaking Thru Me.

Today we are thrilled to introduce one of the founders of Speaking Thru Me,
Leigh Gray

It seems like I am waiting forever for the Lord to bring us a buyer. We have had our house for sale for over six months. I know He knows our situation: four growing kids, mom and dad that love having a weekly date night, two house payments, and did I say four growing, hungry kids? We had it sold and then the weekend before we closed on our new house, the deal fell through. Why is that?
How could that happen?
The other houses in the neighborhood are selling. Will I have to wait forever?

This whole house selling dilemma reminds me of back in the days of Exodus when Moses had gone up on Mt. Sinai to receive the Ten Commandments. Moses had been gone for quite a while and the people were getting anxious for him to come back and lead them. The Israelites had possibly been so used to someone leading them and so dependent on God providing for their every need, they began to get worried and impatient waiting for their leader to get back from communing with the Lord. No, the Lord never stopped providing for them, but their leader was gone, out of sight!

The next most common thing to do, at least in my life as well as the Israelites, was to take matters into their own hands. They wanted to be led and so they asked Aaron to “make gods who will go before us” (Exodus 32:1). Aaron did just as they had asked and out of futile human hands they shaped a golden calf and began to worship this new leader.

I understand completely taking things into my own hands. We have been waiting for what seems eternity for God to move and bring us a buyer. I do know He is the only one who can move a mountain and that house. But there are times when I begin thinking of ways that I could sell it faster, out of His timing, just to be done with it. Being in “God’s waiting room”, as Beth Moore describes it, is tough many times. I get so impatient.

In the wait, I don’t think my husband and I have constructed any calves to worship and be led by, but it is not impossible. I am sure the Lord will reveal that, if necessary. I have learned through this Biblical example that I must be patient and steadfast until God moves in my circumstances. His timing is perfect. He is working in other ways right now, rest assured. I need to keep my eyes focused, waiting for Him to move this house, which seems like a mountain to me, and keep worshipping. I must remain faithful and wait in expectation! He is always faithful!

“In the morning O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.”

Psalms 5:3

Leigh Gray is married to Clayton and has four children: Tucker, Emmajoy, Sarahjane, and Elleigh. She is the author of Mommy Moments Devotional booklet and Journaling the Joy of Jesus; an intimate look into her personal walk with the LORD. Leigh is the Co-Founder of Speaking Thru Me Ministries, a fee-free event resource for churches. You can find more information about Leigh Gray at:

www.speakingthrume.com

www.leighhargisgray.blogspot.com