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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Am I Missing Anything, God?

My blog friend, Lisa Whittle, wrote a while back about a conversation she had with God. Wanting to make sure that she wasn't off the path He was leading, she asked Him, "God, are we tracking"?



Since reading that post of hers, I have probably asked God that a handful of times. The most recent one was a couple of weeks ago.



It was a Thursday and my spirit was down. I started doubting what I'm doing, what I'm supposed to be doing, what I'm saying, if I'm saying the right things, if my life is making a difference, if I'm doing something out of His will. I wasn't depressed but I also wasn't my normal hey, God is good and life is sweet little self either.



I went to bed that night praying, begging, pleading with God to show me that we were still indeed...tracking. I have done things in my life that I thought were "from God" only to find that they were basically about me. The outcome isn't pleasant and oftentimes is followed by weeks, if not months of dealing with shame. And quite frankly, I am just not interested in that.



When I went in to check my email the next morning in my neat and tidy anal-retentive inbox that does not have a single, unread item in it, thankyousokindly, I found an email from a woman. We'll call her Barbara.



Barbara shared her heart with me and all that she'd been through. She opened up her life to me and told me that she had felt so alone. She told me how she wished that God would speak directly to her like He did when He chased Stacy all the way to Texas. She just wanted to hear from God.


A gal that Barbara met at the meeting that night started sharing her story and mentioned that God had ordained her steps and that they led directly to my front porch one evening this past August. Barbara began to shake and was absolutely beside herself. She could not believe that she was sitting with THE Stacy that she'd read about two months earlier on my blog.



And boy did they have themselves a conversation.



As tears were streaming down my face at the end of the email, God spoke as directly to my heart as I've ever heard him. All He said to me was, "Even if it's only one."



It doesn't matter if you write for thousands or only for the handful of gals you have in your Bible study. It doesn't matter if you speak to stadiums full of people or to the thirty-seven teenagers at your church. It doesn't matter if you reach a million people or ten people.


All that matters is that you reach.

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6 Comments:

Blogger Jamie Harper said...

Thank you for this sweet reminder!

April 29, 2009 at 8:43 AM  
Blogger Denise said...

Very awesome reminder, bless you.

April 29, 2009 at 3:01 PM  
Blogger lynnmosher said...

Cindy, I'm so glad I got to read this. I write devotions also and I've been going through the same things lately. I loved this. Thank you so much for writing it. It's been a great confirmation from the Lord.

Blessings to you...Lynn

April 29, 2009 at 9:22 PM  
Anonymous Joanna Shumaker said...

Thank you for this great devotional! It was a confirmation to me of what God taught me today: I am just to reach out and share my story no matter how many or who it is to.

May God bless your endeavors!

Joanna

April 29, 2009 at 10:02 PM  
Blogger BizzieLizzie said...

Amen Sista! One more for Jesus! Awesome story! Glad you shared!! Blessings your way!! ~Charlotte

April 30, 2009 at 5:12 AM  
Anonymous MAXINE said...

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO REACH SOMEONE I WORK WITH AND I WAS FEELING LIKE I WAS DOING NO GOOD. THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME TO JUST REACH ONE AND DON'T GIVE UP. TODAY MY PASTOR CAME TO MY WORKPLACE JUST TO SAY HI. AND HOLD AND BEHOLD SHE OPEN UP TO HIM. AND THEY HAD A GOOD VIST. MAYBE, GOD IS USING ME IN A WAY I DON'T SEE. JUST ONE MORE

May 1, 2009 at 9:27 PM  

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