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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Best Laid Plans & Shifting Sand

What is that adage about best laid plans?

Something about going awry?

I was a bit confused on just what awry means and I wanted to be sure before I slapped it up on a blog. So I did what any good writer does, I right clicked on the word to get a list of synonyms (and yes, I do own a thesaurus and I even own a synonym finder book). Here’s what I found:
off beam
out of kilter

Awry also means: muddled, and amiss

So, that’s my world – awry and all those other adjectives. I think muddled, twisted, and out of kilter describe me the best. So, that’s me today – muddled, twisted and out of kilter.

Last week, I was much more together. It seems that I just get to the place where I think I have a slight grip on what’s happening in my world, and then something shifts. Sometimes these shifts feel like a major earthquake and other times they are more like standing at the ocean’s edge as the sand moves under my feet. Today has been more of an ocean’s edge day – not a serious shift, but one that’s thrown me off balance.

I’ve plotted everything out for the next six months and this isn’t in my plan. This doesn’t work for me, Lord. I can’t do this. I don’t have this on my calendar. Find someone else. I don’t want to do this. I want to cry and stomp my feet like a petulant child.

I look at my calendar and consider the next months, I start to panic. I feel as if I’m crumbling under the load – so I’m taking a step back and, I will do, as a dear, sweet friend recently told me “take a breath.”

In that breath I realized that I’m so fast to make plans and lay them out for God to bless. Okay, Lord, here’s the deal—we’re going to do this and then we’ll go there and do that. (Notice how I say we? I’m always good to include the Lord in my plans.)

Today, He caught my attention and, once again, made me see that He’s in control and it’s only through Him that I get through each day. I don’t function in this world because I’m so together – in fact, without Christ I couldn’t make it a day without just falling flat on my face. I don’t operate out of my strength, but only through His.

Pride is stepping in the way. I want to be in control. I want to write my schedule and plot my days. I realized that it’s not about calendars or schedules. It’s about the God I serve. I serve the God who created our universe; the God who breathed life into man; the God who moves mountains, delivers people from captivity and the God who sent His own Son to die for me. This is my God – this God of might and wonder. I serve a wondrous God who’s called me into His service and given me a task. He will equip me for the work He’s laid before me. His grace is all I need.

My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9

I don’t know why the plans have changed. I don’t understand all the Lord is doing. I don’t know why the sand has shifted --- but He does. This I do know -- that I find my joy, my strength and my purpose in my life in Him. The sand may have shifted, but I’m standing on the Rock. He is my rock and my salvation. It’ in Him that I trust.

Today, I am claiming this verse—
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13

I chose to overflow with HOPE by His power! So, even though the sand has shifted and I’m struggling with this new path, I’m trusting in God. He’s faithful and has brought me this far, I trust that He will handle the rest of this journey.

Have you had a change in your life?
Are you struggling with something that needs change?
Today, right now, call on God for His strength and His power in your life. Stand firmly on the Rock that is your Salvation.

In Him,

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Blogger Heather said...

WOW that really spoke to me this morning. I have recently gone through (am going through) a lot of change in my life recently. Your devotion was refreshing to me. Thank you for blessing me this morning!

September 24, 2008 at 5:29 AM  
Anonymous Jennifer Reyes said...

THank you for this! I am one who does a whole lot of planning and I always get nervous when things change. You described it very well. But I've come to understand that I MUST trust God and not myself. Thank you again!

September 24, 2008 at 6:42 AM  
Blogger Cathy Davis said...


The sand is constantly shifting and I keep taking it to Him. It's not easy, sometimes, ok, most times, giving over that control, but He makes it so worth it!

September 24, 2008 at 7:45 AM  
Blogger haydee28 said...

I am feeling just this right now. So much change in my life. It is a daily renewal of my life to let go my control and hand the reigns over to God. Thank you for the post. God works through you and the others on this blog to speak to His children with just the right message that they need to hear.

In Christ,


September 24, 2008 at 9:22 AM  
Blogger Angie said...

Mary---YOU wrote what I felt all weekend long and couldn't put a word to or a finger on the illness. Or the prognosis. I was so out of kilter---a clear thought was a dancing butterfly and could NOT be caught. But boy-howdee the tears could be caught...bottled and saved...because they sure flowed!

Thanks for putting a symbolance of order to my feelings and "LIFE". If it was for no one else...this girl needed it!

September 24, 2008 at 11:55 AM  
Anonymous Debbie said...

This was a very timely post for me. I struggle with making my plans and yes, asking God to bless them. It's such a good reminder about who is in charge and that's not me but Him.

September 24, 2008 at 12:35 PM  
Blogger Vicki said...

Outrageous encouragement! Whew! I needed this. Thanks so much, Mary. Love your siggie, too.

September 24, 2008 at 12:55 PM  
Blogger mochirunner said...

What an amazing post! And timely. Fall is definitely a season of change for many of us--back to school, new jobs, new roles in life, etc--and we want to plan! Thank you for the reminder to take a step back and trust in Him when we feel like He is NOT cooperating with the plans we have laid out.

September 24, 2008 at 6:37 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yes, I recently went through a few changes in my life (AGAIN!) I wanted to stomp my feet and scream at GOD "NO! YOU CAN'T DO THIS!" But I heard myself clearly and realized "Of course, He can. He's God."

I don't understand why He's allowing these painful changes to happen but I'm counting on His promise: "I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you, give you hope and a FUTURE."

He wants me to relax 'coz He's taking charge. TRUSTING is the lesson.

God bless you and may He fill you with the power of the Holy Spirit.

September 24, 2008 at 10:53 PM  
Blogger ChristiS said...

oh, how very true! We were discussing this same type thing in Sunday School on Sunday. Thanks for sharing this!! Be blessed!

September 25, 2008 at 6:18 AM  
Blogger LauraLee Shaw said...

Incredible insight and wisdom balanced with Godly authenticity. That is as in-kilter as it gets. Thank YOU for sharing this!

September 25, 2008 at 10:29 AM  
Anonymous Shauna said...

Sis, you took the words right out of my mouth! Thank you for being so open and honest. It's nice to know I am not the only "woman of worth" who feels this way!

September 27, 2008 at 4:44 PM  

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