This Life I Live
It was October, 1994. I remember it vividly.
My husband, Chris, and I were sitting on the floor in our one-bedroom apartment in San Antonio, Texas, writing our very first song together. We volunteered our time and talents to lead worship at our church, as well as minister to teenagers. We loved it and enjoyed pouring into people. It was a nice, convenient gig that served us quite well and also touched a few others along the way. We were happy. Life was good.
Until, that is, my husband appeared to me with this announcement: "I think we're being called into full-time ministry."
My thoughts immediately jumped to me and my level of comfort: I can't be a pastor's wife. I don't look like a pastor's wife. I am not as nice as a pastor's wife. And I certainly don't act or talk like a pastor's wife. And for the love, I cannot wear denim jumpers with apples on them for the rest of my life.
But, when I calmed down, I started to pray. Eventually, I surrendered the dreams, aspirations and ambitions that I thought would be the catalyst for happiness in my life. And it was at this time that I truly found life.
And an abundant one at that.
Psalm 37:4 (NIV) says, "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart." Many take this verse out of context and think that God will give them anything they desire if they just play nice and go to church on Sundays.
Because everything we want is not what is God's best for us.
I have found that when I truly delight myself in the Lord, the desires I once had fade and are replaced with Kingdom desires, wishes and wants. The life I thought was so amazing before can hold no candle to where I am now.
And that can only be explained by the promises of God that are so richly awarded to those who seek Him with their whole hearts.
Share a time when you surrendered something you thought was so wonderful only to find that the Creator of the universe had something so much better in mind.In Him,
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