Faith and Time

This past week marked four years since the near drowning accident of our youngest child, Isabelle. I am not one to mark time by dates, and am not usually bothered by dates in general. I noticed many people around me do put a lot of weight on days and dates, anniversaries and milestones. Many friends called to "check" on me as the date approached. I imagine they wondered how I would deal with the knowledge that four long years have passed and although there has been progress made in the overall health and well being of Isabelle, it is no where near the completed product that is being hoped and prayed for. Will the passing of time cause my faith to waiver? The devil is very clever in the way he puts little thoughts in your ear about what these milestones mean. The funny thing is to me they mean absolutely nothing except that we have come this far and are on the right road, leading us on this journey.

If someone had shown me a glimpse of my life, or more specifically my heart just a few short years ago I would have thought it wasn't a possibility. I have to say I rather enjoyed my naive bubble of a life I lived in for so many years. It is nothing, nothing compared to the wild ride I'm on now. I have come to know Jesus as my personal savior. I have come to know God as my deliverer, my everything. Instead of keeping the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit in a little box tied with a pretty bow, He lives!! He lives in my life and in the lives of the people around me. It is an awesome discovery.

I remember a time, years ago, that I almost envied those who were new in the church. I saw the spark in their eyes and the desire in their hearts to serve God. I felt that God was too common place because I simply took Him for granted, having always had Him and having always had "church." This is not true. I took Him for granted because I never gave Him the opportunity to move in my life in a real way. Sure I prayed for things, and even received from God... but that was only a little part of the whole package. God is bigger than that and capable of more. To know that He wants me... ME... to participate in a relationship with Him is amazing. To know that He sent His one and only Son so that I might have life eternal... amazing. To know that He is watching me and cares for me... amazing!

I can't say that I have arrived, I am still traveling on this road. I am excited for what tomorrow will bring. I am happy to think of the people God will put in my path over the next week, month, years... Faith really is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1

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