It was our first date, I spent half the afternoon getting ready and making sure my outfit was just right. I was a little nervous because we were friends first before we decided to move to “dating” so this new area was new for both of us. He arrived at my dorm and buzzed my room to let me know he was downstairs waiting. I had no idea where he was taking me, I hope I dressed appropriately and I sure wish my hair would stay still. Flying downstairs and then all of sudden walking gracefully when he saw me, he had a big smile on his face. We piled into his car and off to Red Robin Restaurant. I don't know what I talked about during the ride, during dinner, or even as we walked the mall afterwards. But when I arrived back home I realized I talked the whole evening and he was a gracious listener. When I am nervous I can talk non-stop about anything and everything. Despite this fact he still asked me out again.
Fast forward 14 years later, we arrived home after a long day of football and he asked me out to dinner, just the two of us. I was excited about the fact I did not have to cook. I got myself ready and we walked out the door to go to Outback Steak House, a favorite for both of us. He did not need to ask where for dinner, he knew. While driving we did not talk, we sat in the intimacy of the silence. We held hands and just enjoyed the comfort of being together. We got our table, ordered our food chatted a little but just enjoyed being out. When I returned home I knew we did not spend much time talking but it was a great night of enjoying the intimacy of silence.
As a young girl if our dates went like the later I would think he was mad at me, or I did something to upset him. But as we grew and matured and spent more time together, silence was a new level of intimacy. We both could be quiet and know everything is ok.
Is God trusting you with an intimacy of silence? As a new believer we want the “feelings” knowing God is hearing us. We need that reassurance, just like I did when first dating my husband. We look for visible answers or responses. The more time I spent with him, the deeper our relationship became. There comes a time when God says “you know me enough” that I can share with you the intimacy of my silence. In the stillness and silence of God, your relationship grows deeper and you become more confident in your faith believing, “I know God heard me.” (despite what your feelings are saying) This silence can make even the most mature Christian become uneasy sometimes, but realize God is bring your into a deeper understanding of who He is. If you are in the midst of God's silence be encouraged he is there, and he is developing a deeper intimacy between you and Him.