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Thursday, August 9, 2007

Let Go and Let God...

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." ~ Philippians 4:8 (ESV)

Sunday afternoon I was not in a very pleasant mood, believe me. You know how you plan out things just to scrap (pun intended) all your plans? Well, that was me Sunday...

All week I had planned to scrap some baby pictures of our son. I wanted to create some lasting memories for my little digi-scrap book; since the pictures just have been in a box for over 20 years. I had some of them scanned during the week, picked out the digi-supplies I wanted to use. Around noon time our son came up with the idea that he needed pants, that he needed 'stuff' for his apartment. To top things off, he wanted to keep the student loan payment because he needed to make all these purchases. I almost blew my top...
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand;" ~ Philippians 4:4-5 (ESV emphasis mine)

Huffing and puffing I went the bathroom praying..."Lord, really, where is the reason here. Why do I always have to scrap all my plans to be there for Daniel..." -- It never fails - God showed up to change my heart. There was something deeper than just the scrapped scrap-booking project, was there? For goodness sake! The pictures have been in a box for over 20 years.

You know what the issue is/was? I am scared. I am scared that I have failed to raise our son properly. Can he wash his own clothes? Can he prepare a meal other than Raman Noodles or scrambled eggs? He doesn't have his drivers license-how will he get around? Will he pay his bills on time? All these questions flooded my mind.

The 15 minutes I spent in the bathroom praying changed everything. I knew the root of my foul mood. I felt that I did not prepare our son for a life away from home. God calmed my spirit and changed my mood. Needless to say, I enjoyed the time shopping with our son. He showed me that he can take care of himself. We bought clothes together, he picked out some towels for his apartment...we had fun. If you are wondering about the student loan payment...our son gave me the money.
"I can do all things through him who strengthens me." ~ Philippians 4:13 (ESV)

Lord of Heaven and Earth. Thank You so much for changing my heart on Sunday afternoon. I am glad that You are there to guide my heart, mind and spirit. I know that I need to let go and let You take care of the rest. I am trusting in Your mercy. In the precious name of my Lord and Savior, in Jesus' name I pray ~ Amen.



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10 Comments:

Blogger Denise said...

Bless you dear Iris.

August 9, 2007 at 2:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Iris,

I meet Jesus in the bathroom for a word often. I am so thankful for you Iris and your genuine love for Jesus. This post is touching and an example to turn to the King when facing our fears.

Love you!

August 9, 2007 at 9:20 AM  
Blogger Paula said...

Letting go and letting God is a lesson I'm learning alot lately.

August 9, 2007 at 9:21 AM  
Blogger Sandi said...

You are so descriping my life. Our son is going back to college in another state. This is his second year but he won't be in the dorm he will be in an apt. and will have a job to pay bills. I hope he pays them on time. I too spend some of my best prayer time in the bathroom. Thanks for the post.

August 9, 2007 at 7:44 PM  
Blogger Aunt Angie said...

It's really something how we all wind up in the same room for a long talk with the Lord...could it be that it is the only place for "real privacy"? I have cried the hardest tears of my life in the bathroom---the bathroom...where we bathe....become clean again.
On June 4,2007 I blogged a problem I was having with "letting go". For some reason, motherhood maybe?, anyway, I just always seem to come up against the same problem with my big girl. I want her close to God. I want her to get her life right. I want her to instill in her children the love of God I poured into her....I want.....
You have done a wonderful job with your son. You had a good day with him! That is saying ALOT!!! Believe me. I can't tell you when that happened last with me and Tiffany. But it will. I am praying and believing that all the praying throughout her life, all the teaching and training, all the spiritual influence will override the enemy. Once and for all she will be in love with the Lord Jesus as never before!
YOU HAVE DONE A GOOD JOB. HE WILL PULL OUT EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT HIM AND USE IT AND TURN TO EVERY GOOD THING IN HIS LIFE FOR SUPPORT AND STRENGTH!
I appreciate you and your ministry.

August 9, 2007 at 8:48 PM  
Blogger Darlene Schacht said...

Awesome!! I'm reminded of my own grouchy son tonight. But the grouchy spirit led us into something deeper, I calmed him down and had a good heart to heart. Sometimes these feelings surface, it's good to clean them with the ointment of our Lord. You did good, you wonderful mom.

August 9, 2007 at 11:36 PM  
Blogger Debbie said...

hehehehe.....
No, just like the word says.... there's nothing NEW under the sun!

I understand this completely, only with my daughter.... And yes, they think OUR money is ALWAYS best! Funny how they want us to see them as "adults" :)

I can just imagine the prophets of old, (and their wives) when it came time to let the children go....

Praying for you.......
and me........

August 9, 2007 at 11:55 PM  
Blogger Roo said...

ahhhh God bless you iris.
what an encouragement for us mamas that are just starting on the mama hen road.

it;s hard, heh? i'm so thankful that we have a big God that walks beside us.

August 10, 2007 at 9:19 PM  
Blogger Lisa @ The Preacher's Wife said...

Oh Iris, I can barely stand to think of the day one of my chickens leaves the nest.

Praying special comfort over you as you send your son into the world...Something tells me he is much better prepared than you think..:))

Lisa

p.s. I still can not get to your site...I've been on the phone with my ISP to no avail..I don't know what to do??!

August 10, 2007 at 10:07 PM  
Blogger Vicki said...

Having three out of the nest now, I can surely relate to your motherly heart. I've often wondered, too, if I did enough to prepare them for life on their own. Much else concerns me often times, but like you, I pray and trust these concerns with the Lord who loves our children even more than we do. It's good to know that He's working out His plan in their lives, too.

love you, friend.

August 16, 2007 at 2:47 PM  

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