The God Who Sees Me
Do you ever feel like no one sees you? Not literally, but that no one sees you--who you are past all the surface stuff. Have you ever had that feeling when you are talking with someone who is not really present? You know what I'm talking about--the glazed eyes and "uh-uhs."This can be very painful. We all long to be "seen," to be known.
God created us to be in relationship with Him and with others. He created us each uniquely and "threw away the blueprint." We each have something special to offer back to Him in praise, and something special to offer others, as well.
In studying the various names of God in scripture, one has really jumped out at me in the past year--El Roi, which means "the God who sees." It testifies to His omnipresence, seeing all. This is the name of God that Hagar, a woman in despair and without hope, uses to refer to God. He is the God who sees and cares about all our circumstances, even the ones where we have dug a hole for ourselves by our sinful choices. I don't know about you, but this brings me unmeasured comfort. We serve an amazing God!
R.C. Sproul writes in "The Character of God":
There are many things in my life that I do not want to put under the gaze of Christ. Yet I know there is nothing hidden from Him. He knows me better than my wife knows me. And yet He loves me. This is the most amazing thing of all about God's grace. It would be one thing for Him to love us if we could fool Him into thinking that we were better than we actually are. But He knows better. He knows all there is to know about us, including those things that could destroy our reputation. He is minutely and acutely aware of every skeleton in every closet. And He loves us.
He sees your dreams and desires.
He sees when you blow it with your children.
He sees when you cry tears of loneliness.
He sees you when you are struggling with the reflection in the mirror.
He sees your victories.
He sees you.
So dear sisters, I pray that you are encouraged that you serve "a God who sees you" and One that loves you deeply. We can not escape HIs presence--He is with us in the heights and in the depths.
O LORD, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night," even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you.Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God! O men of blood, depart from me! They speak against you with malicious intent; your enemies take your name in vain! Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies.Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!